burnt

my life's messy and i don't like it at all. and the thing is, i can't seem to put it in order; not that i don't want to, but i can't. timed practices (tests if u would understand..), make-up tutorials, never-ending practice questions and tutorials to qiong..they're all going to bombard my life for the rest of my remaining weeks.. i don't even have time to breathe, lest talk about revision.
but i seriously can' t go on this way or i'll really repeat history of mid-years. but how?? how can i stop this vicious cycle? i really need time on my own to consoildate my notes and knowledge. but i can't!
the countdown IS freaking me out and time is running short and my grades are, you know, running short of A's.
i hate the feeling of losing control and the fact that i need help but i don't know how to go about helping myself. the teachers are there, almost always, but the thing is, if i don't have time for revision, how am i gonna clarify my doubts?

arghh..tell me what can i do? someone... please... X(





風還在吹著 天多久亮呢
這一切都有理由 是我們不曉得
我望著天　想要答案
想知道明天太陽還會不會出來

but then again, a tinge of optimism is alwyas welcomed! :D
it's from a book i bought during a book fair in AJ, it's by Jimmy (the taiwanese author/comic writer). enjoyed quite a number of nice works by him. sometimes, simple words can express quite a lot. that's how i feel when i read his works.

希望井 ~ 几米
掉落深井，我大声呼喊，等待救援。。。。。。
天黑了，黯然低头，才发现水面满是闪烁的星光。
我总在最深的绝望里，遇见最美丽的惊喜。