i am a POS

today is a bad day.
just feel that im an utter failure.
i mean, how can things go so wrong?
i think i am a big problem.
nothing has been really good since school started but still i should count my blessings.
today 05/05, i screwed my physics test; i screwed my interview; i couldnt play guitar well.
rahh...physics test, hai..i was so terribly lost. couldnt even do a simple specific latent heat qn. it's so simple yet i couldnt do it. forces was worse, left the whole thing blank think it was about 8 or 9 marks. hoorayy..!
my exco interview today, omg. i actually thought quite a bit about the qn they would pose and how i would answer them. but when i was really going thru it, i didnt say what i wanted to. it's like the thought just brushed past and i didnt even get the hint from my brain to speak. POS. how dumb can i get, i mean literally. how dumb can i get? just like when they asked me what qualities i think i possess to be a VP. i said X,XX and XXX. and guess what? i didnt even give examples when i could easily have done so. i mean like organising a fund raising activity and the sec one guides camp. wth. well, i so dont place any hope on getting a position considering the fact that there's so many people vying for that position. i shall be a mugger.
guitar was okay at first but when we played as an ensemble, i kept making mistakes like coming in too early or just missing the whole chord or part of the melody. i think i must be really tired, although i didnt realise it at all. it's like my brain just went blank and i didnt know what was the fingering although i played it like half a minute ago. what is wrong with me?
i really think i should just be a piece of cow dung. at least i could fertilise crops and be of some use.










let's be muggers!