Affinity

Sometimes i resign to fate. Im not a person who doesnt believe in fate, nor am i a person who attribute everything that happens to me to fate. However, i've realised there's something i've experienced all my life, that is really the doing of fate. i cant find a reason not to. It seems like if there's something i really like or want in my life, i would get it. But somehow, it'll be taken away from me a short while later. Be it people, or things/activities i take interest in.

Maybe i take things a little too hard sometimes, or maybe i think a little too deep. But i enjoy doing so, thinking about things that happen and why did thing turn out in that way. At the same time, i give myself a little time to wander into a dreamer-state where im free to think and behave without restrictions. Reality is a tad too harsh on everyone; humans like me need to indulge in some fantasy dreaming.

Okay, im digressing. Well, till now i still havent quite arranged my thoughts about THE phenomena, mere acceptance was my only reciprocation. Maybe i should stop being a fervent admirer of things, too much for my own good. Just like being in love, the deeper you are into a relationship the deeper the wounds inflicted upon breaking up.

I guess i'll just have to learn to appreciate and treasure what i have now, every minute that it is in my possession, and not even think of the time when i'll lose it.

fell ill today, having a really bad throat. must be the 打鸡扒 i had yesterday.

feeling bad and moody. Just nice a time for a dreamer to emerge.









Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened.
And if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have.

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