blabbers (please pardon me)

i've been wanting to write a post to sum up year 2006. but i guess procrastination got the better of me so.. whatever, i'll keep that for next year, when i'll be all free and waiting for the death sentence from MOE.

i decided to blog today coz im just so vexed. about guitar, about the class, about my friends, about myself. school's just started and things didnt go very well and im sad. and im making things worse by being stuck online and blogging. im suppose to be doing my work. well, that's me. i never learn my lessons. but anyway, since im here, i might as well finish this quick and get back to my work.

whatever HDL and i saw on wednesday, i seriously hope it's not true coz it's bloody unfair and those ppl should really wake up their idea. probably we're wrong but i'd still want to check things out. the truth is, im getting more and more lethargic about going to guitar, i dont know why. maybe it's the ppl and yes, those ppl. i hate to be in a situation that im totally confused and just doing what ppl tell me to.at the last minute. it sucks! it happened during sl and i dont like that feeling. i want to be in the know and i thought that is the basic thing that any i/c s should do. we dont just plan for ourselves to know, we plan, to tell everyone what we plan, isn't it? it's dumb to plan something and your whole team doesnt know anything about it. what's the point? i dont like last minute stuff . and those ppl in guitar does it time and time again. sms-ing ppl late in the night about practice tmr. like wake up your idea? i dont live to wait for sms-es to go for practice. i have a life too, and i need to plan my stuff. maybe im not used to the way ppl do things in AJ. it's just too last minute, and i've learnt that last minute work do not do us good. back in cedar, things were better. no last minute events/plannings, i can safely say that everything was planned and information disseminated beforehand. even HDL commented that she was always the one who is being told to have a sense of urgency and now in AJ, she's the 'fastest' person around. oh well, i think it's just the different school culture. whatever, 1 more year and im out of there.

my class, i hope is not the same as before. as in the ppl's attitude. i dont want another year like last year and i think no one wants that. teachers gave up on us, that was how bad things were. and i hope it's a 'were'. this year had better be good, i dont wanna screw up my A's. what i think is that since we're here as a class, why dont we work together as a class? i always thought it's better to fight the battle as a class than to do it alone. isn't it?contributing to one another's learning does not disadvantage yourself because in the process, we all learn. well it's our last year together, why not make things good for everyone?

friends and myself; things dont seem to be the same as before, perhaps only for some of us. weird tensions, sarcasm that i cant detect (but zhiyu and cindy do though). why did things turn out like that? i admit im not good at this human relationship stuff and i can be insensitive sometimes. maybe it's what happened last year. that now nothing is the same anymore. well, we realise who the person whom we thought we know really are, and that changed our perception. misunderstanding or not, i dont wanna care too much now. now that we dont have to face each other everyday. let it be a misunderstanding then, or should it be too much of coincidences happening? i want to carry on with my life and mugging should start soon, i hope. >.<

period.












Success is not of utmost importance. if i know i've tried to achieve, there should be no regrets. well... maybe a little. just a little would be okay.