terrible friday

ms leong told us about it today.. after morning assembly. i received the news yesterday and i thought i wouldnt cry. she didnt teach me though i've seen her around, so i thought i wouldnt be so affected. throughout the 15min or so, i just stared at ms leong while my mind tried to process and piece together what actually happened. tears welled up evey now and then, but i managed to fight them back. but when i was out of the LT, i don' t know why but my tears just flowed. affected huhdelian too (im so sorry!). both of us remained calm throughout the session but my rebellious tear duct just gave everything away.

sigh.. i think im too emotional and i cry too easily. and i hate to cry in public, coz my nose and eyes would turn so red and puffy. and pm just had to probe further and make us tear all over again. POS. i just dont understand how and why some people just have to be so cynical about everything, including death. it's natural for people to feel sad and cry about things like this. why can't some people be more sensitive to what others are feeling? sister says some people are just born to lack this gene of being able to empathize. there's just something lacking in the genetic code in their bodies i guess. i was so pissed and upset about the way pm handled the situation. but i think i was so emotionally occupied to think of standing up and just walking off. i would, really, if i wasnt that preoccupied. but then again, it'd leave huhdelian in a difficult position. ahh whatever. it's just my luck to have that lesson early in the morning, after such an episode.