was just clearing my blog of dead links and gosh, it took me more than three hours! cuz in the midst, i couldn't help but read many of the blogs (those who are still 'alive'). many who have just finished their A's, like me, are having the same sentiments. lost, aimless, bored, worried... but of course there are others who are having exciting times in the outdoors. but many of them do realise, eventually, that all these gamings, blogging, nua-ing, bumming around and talking nonsense on the msn are having their novelties wearing off very soon, say, a couple of weeks? there must be more to life than this, isn't it?

others, who are a year older than me, are basically in two distinct situations: if you're in a local university, you're currently stuck in a panic-stricken mode in some Lee Wee Nam library in a secluded spot in Singapore, frantically cramming as much information into your limited-capacity grey matter up there. if you're in an overseas university, i guess you get a better deal over there with all the partying and midnight drives, well at least that's what i see in my seniors' blogs. one, i remember, is regretting going into NUS science faculty instead of some mathematical science in NTU.

aah whatever, will i even get into any of these universities? this issue sets me thinking (and worrying) a lot. talked to HDL about it when we were prom shopping, and we couldn't step into popular cuz we were drinking bubble tea ;p well both of us are almost in the same situation, fearing that we'd flunk our economics and getting below a B for physics. but it has come to such a point that such irrational thoughts come flashing across my mind randomly and then leaving me feeling hopeless, helpless and a dull sense of inevitability that what i'd always feared, would come true.

oh great! i've just attracted a beetle into my room. darn beetle, it always finds me when my sister isn't around. just pray that it doesn't come into contact with me, leave me alone and i'll leave you alone too! do beetles understand reciprocality, i wonder. and i'm just looking at the finished cup of yogurt sitting on my desk, as and when, to make sure that the ants haven't managed to detect this very sweet-smelling stuff over here. i ought to throw it away you know, but, hmm after this post okie? ;p

ahh did i tell you how terrible my run was yesterday? gosh, it was quite bad cuz i shopped with HDL in the morn-afternoon and went for my run in the evening. and probably you didn't see how the shopping would affect my run, well, i tend to get foot-ache after i shop, no matter how short the duration was (okay, at least 3 hours lah!;D). 6k after that totally killed me. it wasn't so much the tiredness and out-of-breathness, it was my legs that were killling me. felt wobbly and a tinge of pain, sister said i had to get used to the distance and i thought so too! argh! 3 freaking days left!!! omg, i really wonder what had gotten into me when i signed up for this run, especially with the full knowledge that i only had 10 days to train 10km. right.

tomorrow... tomorrow will be another torturous day... of running.
RUN, SH, RUN! :D