so tired

i think i'm starting not to understand people around me these days. why do people do things not because they sincerely want to do it? certain things they do, it's just for the sake of doing it and it's obvious that they're just doing it because it is the right thing to do. it's so pointless. why have we grown to be such beings who are so superficial and always masking pretence? it's so scary... you'll never know what people's real intentions are.
why do people change just to please others? what's so terrible about yourself that you have to hide, and what's the point? everyone has their imperfections and weaknesses, what's there to hide and for how long can you hide?and the thing is, i don't think there's anything wrong, i don't see why. we're all human beings, aren't we? we're all not perfect. so why are you trying to be?
i'm don't have a glib tongue and i'm straighforward most of the time, but not to the extent of being blunt. but it seems like that's becoming a shortcoming on my part. honesty may not be the best policy in the real world. at least, being too honest isn't.

i'm beginning to discover another side of people.. is that good or bad? does it mean that i'm starting to think more sensibly, or is it just me thinking too much? so many questions.. they're making me numb.