i wish for a little more time and wit

life is crazy in ntu... and in accountancy. whoever told me accountancy is quite relax and that it's possible to aim for As and nothing less than a B ought to be shot. i'm not even thinking about exams, i'm just struggling very terribly to finish my assignments now. the financial management stuffs are so bloody difficult i'm totally lost for words. and it's just so frustrating when you can't even complete the assignment and people are like presenting answers that show that they actually understand the concepts super well. i feel so demoralised...so lost and so helpless. i admit i should not have lagged from the very beginning but the fact that i've not much people to turn to when i have questions or problems totally worsened the situation i'm in now. kinda fated that i'm actually taking the more difficult set of modules compared to the other group. financial management and IT are like totally out of the world to me... wished i'd read more about financial stuff over the past few months. why do i always regret the stuff i should have done, especially when i did know that i should be reading up in the past few months but i didnt?

i really think i lack discipline. someone should just slap me lah, this is getting so frustrating. i need to learn to motivate discipline myself...somehow. i really can't go on like this or i'll really be flunking the exams. :( i don't know if staying in hall is a good idea. although i'm not too involved in hall activities... somehow i feel i'm less able to study in hall. but then taking into account the travelling time, i think hall might just be better. sigh i think it's just me. i need to wake up. things are going to get worse when CCA starts.