at Bottle Tree Park

someone said i look athletic today. hawhawhaw :)

someone:"eh sihui, were you an athlete in school or something?"
me: -stares agape-

hahaha how cool is that?! and that person's someone i just met today during the event. geehee i think that made me high. :D no one, in my 19 years, ever told me i look athletic until today. :D

went to work for half a day today. marshal for Inttra's teambuilding event at Bottle Tree Park. quite a good and happy experience today, not just because of the reward. really liked the place i was at today...though there were the irritating mozzies and heat. the sun wasn't that bad today but i think i still got a little more tanned. met quite a few interesting people today, one of whom i felt she looked really familiar but i just can't pin-point who she reminds me of exactly. her name made it even worse...Belle...i've never knew anyone with this name before and she's like, out of my circle of friends in every aspect. hmmm let's just take it that she has a common face alright. don't really like this 似曾相识 feeling whenever i get it, it's kinda eerie. haha it either makes me really puzzled or just makes my judgement wrong all of a sudden.

today also made me feel that i'm really not an events person, in the sense that i don't think i want to organise any major events if i have a choice. i think i just don't have a flair for it, there's just too many things that my brain can't take. especially those that require me to make on-the-spot decisions. i think i'm not too good at that and i don't wanna try to prove myself wrong cuz i may be right. just felt afraid that my judgement might be wrong but then again, in such situations, any decision made is a good one because it does drive everyone in the same direction and that alone, makes this right. and doing events need passion, cuz it's the thing that will push you on when you have to make many sacrifices and countless hours of OTs for preparation and post-event wrap-ups. i don't think i'm up to it, yet.

on a side note, i received a call from a person called Kenneth from NTU Sports Club, asking if i'd like to join their Sports Camp next week. so damn bloody last-minute eh? kinda put off...and the call came at 10.33pm. HAH to think they have to go to such extent to ask people to go for their camp. i'd always thought they're the 'hottest thing' around where demand for places far exceeds supply? hmmm... fishy stuff. anyway i rejected them. don't think they're my bunch of people, they are fit, pretty, handsome, egoistic...i'm not. just let me be my plain old jane and not subject myself to unnecessary comparisons. futhermore, sunday is my 10k run. don't think my legs, knees and brain are in any good condition to be trashed out during the camp. =X i'm weak...so let me be. and after so long waiting for camp comms to reply, i've kind of thought it through. maybe not going for camps isn't so bad afterall. i think i might need some time to be alone, to do my many stuffs yet to be done. i'd just take fate as it wants me to be.

ahh school's starting in 17 days. freak! this is freaky. i hope time drags itself for the next week or so. i am so not prepared. i promise i'll find the strength to...i just need time.