In memory of Jialing

it's 10 february again. this day 3 years ago, i'll never forget. time really flies, jialing has left us for 3 years. sometimes i wonder whether i've really gotten over it. though we're not the best of friends but her demise has certainly impacted me greatly. it's the first time i'd ever felt that perculiar feeling. the feeling of cold hard truth hitting you, then what comes after is just total disbelief superimposed on a tinge of dizziness. i still remember what went on in my mind minutes after ms leong broke the news to us. i kept thinking 'huh... how could it be?no no no..i must be dreaming. how could a person be alive a few days ago and now you tell me she's dead? really? is this true?' it's just this dull sense of disbelief that lingers in my mind for days. i could still remember the exact words ms leong said to us. " I dont know how to put this so i'll just read from this report. 'Your student, XXX Jia Ling, has passed away.' " this sentence replayed itself several times in my head, and i couldn't even decipher the meaning of 'passed away'. i mean, what do you mean 'passed away'? i just saw her a few days ago. And even till today, i'd still be holding onto this glimmer of hope that i'd see her one day, somewhere and we'd both catch up with each other.

oh well, i dont really know but i think the least i could do is remember her as she was before she left. And of course, i'd treasure everyone around me; i'll keep reminding myself of that. a few days before jiaing left, i wanted to say hi to her during assembly in the hall, but i thought it's okay, i'll do it some other day. And i didnt have that chance to say hi. She was gone. i'd always thought those emails saying 'you should treasure those around you because you will never know when you will lose then' was so cliche and crappy. But now i know, i really should do so before it's too late.

And to jialing: i'd remember you always. 2H'03 will too. this is a song specially to you:
你像蝴蝶飛離我的世界　
我看不見你美麗的臉
眼淚流成河你還是學不會往回飛
你像蝴蝶才回我的世界　
讓我學會感動和感謝
我不停唱你還是聽不見　
我想說的話 你再也無法笑著回答
你現在的另一個家　有沒有會唱歌的月光
是不是下雪會出太陽　會不會你還是想家我在這裏　
還陪著你呼吸
我看著你　以為只是去散心













世界没有任何的改变 但就是少了一个人。这种感觉，你能够体会吗？