a pleasant spark in the days of blue

Whee! It's been some time since I've won something significant. :) Still haven't decided to keep it or sell it away.

This week's recess and it's home-alone for me. Hope I'll be able to get some things going while I'm alone. It's kinda weird when I'm alone - I get moodswings. That means sometimes I get the adrenaline rush that I'm independent and thus feeling so ever motivated, yet the next moment I'm kinda wallowing in self-pity of being alone and just feeling so alone. If you understand what I'm typing. Oh wells, and now I'm imagining the thrill if all our lessons were done through e-learning, how cool that would be? Waking up OTOT, eat my breakfast, on the lappie and attend lessons. Take a nap when I'm tired, then continue with tutorials and revision. Ahh..sheer bliss... (perhaps only as I think of it now :p).

Back to the topic of being alone. I've come to conclude that there's no wrong being lone. What's with the social expectation that everyone should be surrounded by friends all the time? I beg to differ on this. Sometimes, we tend to be swayed and act in accordance to the group we're with, and it's not exactly what we want to do at that point in time. I do think it's pointless, sometimes. Being stuck in the rat race in Nanyang Island, it's hard not to stop thinking about myself, about what I've got to do next. Well, 'my style is about, yah myself you know. Leapard preeenz. Boooomzz', isn't it? :p I'm still pretty upset by the whole episode of our dear Miss Singapore. But anyways, it's a lesson learnt to screen the future participants more closely. I mean, it's Singapore's reputation at stake, since Miss Singapore World is really representative of our country in all aspects.

On a side note, I went bouldering today!! It's been so long. Too long that I've forgottent the pain associated with the darn spare climbing shoes. grrr.... and yes, I've lost all my muscles. It came to such a stage that my hards are totally wobbly and they're totally not listening to me anymore. :( It's kinda sad that I really wanna climb, yet I can't afford to devote time to it. Why am I always doing things I don't like to do? The feeling's terrible. I really hope to be able to go back to dancing and climbing when I work. Or at least during my internship period where my weekends are free, hopefully.

It's been so long since I last blogged. Feelings good. But then again, there're so many forgotten words that are forever lost because of my procrastination to note them down.

Ah procrastination, it's the thief of time (and words, and thoughts).



And I'm thinking.... again.