'when it's late at night and you're all alone..'

i think i will become emo. HAHA. crap... just when you realised you're rejected from camp. sucks. why is the world so superficial? or maybe i should be asking myself, why do i not look good enough, in their sense of the word? ah whatever, i think i should be thankful that they actually bothered to send a notification email rather than leaving me waiting for christmas like what the NBS camp comm's shit people did. oh well, i think i'm not meant to be sociable. just when i wanted to meet more people, i didnt get any of the camps. haha shalewoba, for sending out applications late maybe.

anyway, organising a class outing is so shitty. especially when only half replied. duh... if you're not interested, could you just press 2 letters telling me that you're not coming? email is free btw, if you all didn't know. anyway i think i'm just gonna go ahead with it. haha! at least huhdelian is coming! then i won't feel bored... hohoho. am thinking of mind cafe but don't really know which branch is better. looked through the list of games available at each branch... might just go for the prinsep or purvis one. looks like the more accessible ones. :) anyway it's so sad that i can't stay out too late cuz i've gotta run the shape thing the next day. rahhhh... just shoot me. i don't even know why i signed up for 10km. my dear sister...thank you very much. i think this run is making me not want to run for stanchart in december. but i like the tee...haha damn shit lah me. oh wells, i don't know. maybe then there will be friends to jio me go run, and maybe i would! =X

was packing my really messy room today and found a lot of funny stuffs. and i think i got the can't-bear-to-throw-things-away syndrome. as in those notes... geog and math ones, she bu de to throw them away. just reminds me of the late nights i spent writing them...they're my sweat and uh... lost-sleep. haha... i think i might just keep some of them. as for math...i keep thinking i might want to tutor next time. but then again, even if i do i don't think i'd tutor JC math. it's too horrendous to teach them, cuz i have the fear of not knowing how to solve them myself. =X okay yah, it's still there in a pile. my sis is so gonna scream at me.

oh wells, certain things just revive those memories. some that i can't bear to... or maybe don't want to remember. but they're all there, the familiar handwriting and smiley..the scribbles the questions and the memories that come with everything. i'm not sure if i want to keep them. those scribbles of lyrics or inspiration that come on random days...found some of them today hidden between sheets of assignments and notes. haha! probably fated to just chance upon them through the many pages i flipped today. i think i might have missed out some too. that's something i like about packing old stuffs...cuz you might just find some long-lost notes and scribbles that you've long forgotten about.

memories...they're just like long-lost memories waiting to be re-discovered. if i could still remember... if i still want to.




i lost my faith you gave it back to me
you said no star was outta reach
you stood by me and i stood tall