Axiom

ms leong talked to us today. about the results, of course. the usual stuff- analysis of our nasty-looking results. though not so nasty after the moderation..but still, enough to scare the hell out of me. especially geog, though ms leong wasn't specifically tough on geog, it was ms zhu. sigh, she was the only one who said so explicitly that we should not be proud of our current marks coz what we see now is better due to the moderation. i mean, i thought this was common understanding and doesn't need to be spoken out loud. you know, when we say something out loud, it becomes a fact. A cold, hard truth. im not saying that if you dont say it out loud, it's not the truth. well..if you understand what i mean.

anw, i think we did so badly lah. esp econs. moderate like siao can? omg. i jumped 3 grades lah..zhiyu jumped 2.. unbelievable! though it varies from student to student, but i thought it was a best-case scenario for me. :) maths and geog also moderate. chuii! what's the world coming to? sometimes i'll just wonder how far will moderation bring us? is it really helping us? well maybe for now.

somehow i just feel guilty and inadepuate, about this moderation thingy. especially especially geog. dunno why. im fine with my moderation for maths and econs but somehow i just feel so bad about geog. not that im not satisfied with the extent of moderation, really, actually im really ok with it. but somehow i just feel..so... i really dunno how to put it in words. maybe it's because i expected myself to do better, although the feeling i get from doing the paper isn't too positive. plus the expectation the teachers have on me. i just feel im letting everyone down, including myself. SIGH! i mean, considering the fact that i've taken physical geog at O's. i shouldnt be so bad at lithosphere now. what is wrong with me?

and one thing ms leong said today made me so terrible and lost. the fact that our standard is so far from the A level standard. i mean, we have so so so much to catch up in such a short span.
so many burdens, so little time... indeed, such is the 'intense jc life' that ms leong mentioned. But i know i will pull through this, with the support of the people i love.

Anyway, i should start counting my blessings too. at least i got promoted. geez! good, good! well done, gay si hui!










Aja aja hwiting!