what goes around, comes around.

If I had been a little slower...

如果那天病了 约会换了 我们就不遇上了。

今天遇到一个我没有想过会遇到的人。是我记忆不好，忘了他也住这里。
遇见他的时候，有点狼狈。因为在学校呆了一整天，一直在更改一带录好的影片。Actually video editing can be a real pain. Uses up alot of my artistic brain cells, which isn't a lot to begin with. No wonder I felt so drained that night.

Anyways, 就在那间咖啡店遇到CP。还蛮好笑的，因为我一直都往地上看，也没留意谁在我周围。直到一只手在我面前晃着, 我还以为是卖煮炒得uncle在拉客。:p 他问我为什么在这里，我说因为我住在这里啊！ 其实正确地说，这是我阿姨家。But you know, it's complicated to explain too much. and I was really tired that night. (Actually I forgot if I did tell him before that I live at serangoon. Then it'll be kinda weird.) But anyways, if you know me well enough, you'd know why it's complicated to explain. So I shall just leave it as that.







Fate, I haven't seen you for some time.

Chanced-upon

I can't remember how I got to her blog. Must be via some facebook linkages around.

Anyhow, I like reading her blog entries. Some really thoughtful stuff that I do experience myself but never had the flair for words to pen them down. Or maybe I'm just too lazy, and lack the chance to click on blogger to write those stuff. Here's something I liked that's on her blog. I think she might have written it on her own. I wished I could regain some of my sense in writing chinese. gahh.

'我只是突然有点想念你。

已经有一段时间了，但在做某些事时，仍是会想起我们的点点滴滴。

你应该全都忘了吧，全都丢掉了吧。或是偶尔会想起？

已经好久没听见，看见了。但是心里隐约还残留着你在我身边那逗留不去的感觉。

哈。你绝对不会想起。我应该从来都没有重要过。

但对我而言，你曾经是重要的。

谢谢你。祝你开心。'

Nicely written. :) My favourite sentence is the one in bold. Not exactly a short one, but I would say it's compact and it encompasses a lot of meaningful words. Ahh... I want to write a short novel! Actually I've started doing it on another site, yes totally in chinese. Haha but shush... shall keep it private till it has a reasonably amount of storyline. :P Anyway I haven't been faithfully writing there cuz school's killing me. Of course, I think you can tell by the number of entries I post here alone. Haha

By the way, this girl that I'm talking about is Yap Jia Min. Yes, she was one of the finalist for Campus Superstar 2009. Have always admired her vocals, she's only 2 years younger than me! She was one of the two I was rooting for during the competition. The other is Aijia. Both have strong vocals that I yearn for. Heh. Yup, have been following her blog recently and have been reading the past entries to actually see her as a person as a whole. I believe blogs and facebook pages do tell quite a bit about a person. So, yes I've been trying to get a better feel of what she is as a person. I hope I don't sound pervertic or what. It's just interesting to see how these online facets of people actually do tell alot about them. It's a bit of psychology here, but strangely I've been hitting the right spots when I piece together information about them online. Psychic eh?

Well, on a more personal note, life's been a little different for me this sem. Mid-sem changes to my life, not that I wanted it. I'm forced by circumstances. Hate it cuz I'm one who needs to have control over my life, and definitely, the sense of constant-cy during my study sem. But sadly, I live an oppressed life and I'm forced to change. I'm forced to be indebted to someone. I'm forced to run away to get some autonomy in life. I swear to break out of this vicious cycle once I have the power. The power to change and take charge of things. Whatever I'm taking now, I'll get it back double.

The thing about kinship. There are just so many 'corners' that I've yet to know about. Like how you shouldn't pay for certain things cuz of kinship. The 'face' issue. So complex. I hate it. Just let me pay and I will feel a whole lot better rather than going about each day scrimping and saving as much as I could. It's difficult, you know. But here I am, trying to be the least indebted in any way possible. And it all started with him. Shingz. I live an oppressed life. And I yearn to break free one day.

That means I need to work darn hard now... but can I? I seem to have lost my motivation for study. Why? Why have I become like that? Where's the girl who used to do everything, aiming for the best and perfection? I don't know. Maybe I've changed. People change, don't they?

I need to find back my motivation and the feeling of having done well. HR isn't difficult, I should score. I believe I'm not stupid, just lazy. SH needs to mug hard for the next six weeks. I must.

there's still sunshine after the rain ;)

I can't express how excited, happy, relieved, thank-god-feel i am today.

Received a call from HSBC and yes, I'm offered an internship there! Gosh, I really didn't think I did well at that interview at all. In the middle of it, I kinda went into a trance and my mind was blocked. I guess it did show up on my face. Darn. I really thought it's a gone-case interview already. But well, surprises there are when you least expect it.

And guess what, I even made a bet with a friend that I wouldn't get it. The stake? Lunch on me!! [TIHS] What was I thinking? But seriously, like what I told my friend, I only make safe bets. hahahaha shot myself in the foot, I guess.

AHAH! but I'm really really really really thrilled! I couldn't believe it totally, till the confirmation email was sent to me regarding the letter of offer. wow.

Alrights! That gives me the motivation to persevere hard in all I do, and be opportunistic! Like I always say. :)