hohoman?

now i know where hahaman came from. =p
(no, hahaman was my original composition lah!)

specially for ms majella woo wen hui. =p

green subway cookie monster.

Life now

is good at work. I really think I'm quite blessed to be in such good company. The people at work are so nice, I feel I'd known them for a long time. It feels like I've been there longer than 3 months, that's what my colleagues say too. haha! I hope that means that I've been of good use to them! Received a call today from one of them asking if I'd bought my track shoes, cuz she was at Queensway and she wanted to help me ask around there. Aw! So sweet of her lah! :D cuz I was kind of whining on friday that I'm sad cuz I couldn't get the colour I wanted.

Read Amanda's blog and realised how stressed up and unhappy she was at work. So it kind of made me feel happy and appreciative. (Not that I wasn't, but her posts just reminded me to.)

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is making me run in circles. I'm getting giddy thinking so much. I think all my life, I didn't have much choices to choose from, my fate and aptitude kind of decided many things for me. You know, not good enough to hit the top and not that bad that I've to settle for the least. Then, I'd always admired the people who just have the luxury of choices. Now I finally have my go at making choices and I realise I really can't decide for nuts. It's getting frustrating now, after the novelty of it wears off. It's not fun anymore. :(

It's like imperfect information in economics; producers can't gauge the demand and so cannot produce at the optimal output, consumers do not have sufficient information about the different goods to make the best decision. That's exactly what I'm going through now, not know the expectations of employers so I can't make a wise choice. gahh! someone help me! i need to speak to people in banking/accountancy firms.

went to the hi-tea session at ntu today. hmmm... quite like the feel of it and the confidence the university gives me. yeah it may be a bit duller than that other one, but I'm just a plain Jane so I think I suit NTU. HAHA =P we shall see what the other one has to offer when I go down on 17 may. what I'm afraid is that future employers may not like plain Jane cuz she's too plain. =X zhiyu said something quite true today, about banks prefering SMU graduates. I really did think about branching into banking... investment banking to be specific. darn it, it's a superficial world out there. will plain Jane survive?

i am

Confused
I know I’m not always right
I know I may be immature at times
But this time I know what I want
I just need a chance to make my own choice
Would you let me?

To you
I’m just like a child that needs a guiding hand
Have you ever thought that this child
Needs some letting-go?
I know you’re bothered by the distance
I know you’re more attracted to prestige

But somehow, I think substance is equally important
Can you stand in my place and take a good look?
Would you?
Not all N are ‘cha’
And not all S are good

--

Weird
I never thought this could last
I’d never dared to hope it will
Just a step at a time
Appreciating but not attaching

Afraid, that is
Of losing and
Of forgetting
If that’s the way thing’s gonna be
I’d rather not

You know I’m imperfect
I’m like a jigsaw with missing parts
And now I think you are one that fits
But since I can never be perfect
I think I can do without you

Just when I wanted to plant a full stop
You hit the pause
08:04:20
I’m don’t see where we’re heading
So I think I’d prefer a sole round one

64D

i told him,"Sorry that i haven't been visiting you for the past two years.. cuz i was busy with examinations and all. but i know that shouldn't be a reason. i'm here today, with granny, aunt, mum and sis. brought nice vegetarian food for you today, and cheng tng. aunt said we should buy cheng tng for a change today, since we've always been buying drinks for you. :) i knew you'd understand.. cuz i've done rather well for the A's, i know you've been watching out for me. i didn't let you down, i didn't let daddy and mummy down too. i know you heard all that i've said all these years. i'm entering the university soon, i'll work hard to do well... get a good job so that i can take good care of granny, daddy and mummy, like sis did."

i think if you ask me what i'd do if i'd the chance to see him in person again, i think i'd hug him real tight. it's something i've never done before, even as a kid. at least i don't remember doing so.

saturday

went to queenstown and IKEA! wanted to buy my sports shoe (finally!) and lunch at IKEA but both missions failed! boo... i am sad. some price confusion and i'm definitely not buying it at $195. o.O so gotta check out the shop in novena to see what the price really is. But then again, even if it's really priced at $179.. it's still a bit too steep isn't it? i think i should just go look for cheaper alternatives. :)

and the food court at IKEA was closed for renovation! so i couldn't eat the nice foodies there! HMPH ;( nan de i'm at queensway and it had to be closed. rahhs! craving not satisfied makes gay an angry girl. ;[

but luckily, the trip isn't such a waste cuz i bought other stuffs like the heart-shaped cushion at IKEA, YES THE ONE WITH HANDS! hahahaha cute eh! I LIKES! *grins :) bought slippers and a sweater too! was darn tired when i reached home yesterday... read a bit of my novel and yeah.. fell into deep deep sleep.

it's been a long long time.. cedar ave!

bears' escape! i mastermind-ed it.. hohoho! the poor bears were left behind in one of the baskets ;(

Subway is the second best choice... after IKEA :)

cushie cushie cushie! wooh~ i'm bringing it to office tomorrow!

Like a candle in the wind

A few months back, this. A few days back, this again. Why is it happening again and again? First comes the sms that left me dumbfounded. Then it was the questioning of why.. why is it happening to someone who's been in my life before? Everything seems so surreal, like the feeling of asking yourself whether everything was true. Somehow you just keep asking, though the answer's really so obvious. But this time round, i didn't feel sad. i don't know if you consider what i felt as sadness.. i think it's more of numbness, the dull sense that comes with the cold truth laid in front of you. It's so inevitable, like you're not given the chance of saying,' No, i don't want it to be this way.' or just not knowing it.

Went for the wake which was at bukit timah. Funnily, we actually went to the wrong church. Doh! But luckily we didn't actually walk into the church and then realise we're at the wrong place. We realised when we were at bugis mrt. So in the end we decided to hop into clarissa's cab to get to the right church.

I couldn't recognise her, possibly because my memory's image of her is rather blur. But when i saw the photo, everything came back. And the four of us sat there, just talking about the past. It's just funny how it is always such events that bring long-lost friends or relatives together again. We laughed at the funny things we used to do in the past, how we used to laugh at her distinct way of wiping her forehead and then asking me if there's tissue on her face; how she'd always ask the girls sitting near the windows to 'open the windows' during her lessons; how she'd always lead us in prayers at the end of each supplementary class; and how she used to wipe her chalky fingers on the front girl's table and how that girl would be so disgusted. Those were the times... which can only be left as memories, nothing more. And Gillian reminded me that it was her who handed me as extra envelope after we'd received our PSLE results. That kinda slipped my mind, i didn't recall that till Gillian mentioned that. That was six years ago. Really, how time flies. I regret not going back to the school more often, at least, maybe i could have bumped into her and say hi. oh wells... that's just human right? We start regretting and treasuring things and people after we lose them, isn't it? And somehow we don't learn our lessons. Sometimes i think we're jsut too caught up with our own lives, our problems, our work... that we just forget those that in fact, matter the most.

The four of us actually agreed that we'd go back in july, or whenever the open house is held. I wonder if this promise would be kept, though i'd really try my best to see that it materialise. Maybe this would be the chance to start keeping in touch with my primary school friends again, after losing contact for such a long time. I believe it's fated, that it is such an event that brought us together again, though it should never have been as such. i'll take this as a sign then.

i've never forgotten you and i'll never forget you. and i'm sure the many students that you've taught and the mentorship that you've provided will stay in our hearts.

wo hen pa ;(

i think i'm kinda freaking out because of the interview tomorrow. not that i want to get in so badly, but you know, you just don't want to screw up then. :( please don't ask me questions that i've no inkling about.. cuz i've been faithfully following the news for the past 2 weeks or so. hahaha! yeap trying to do some last minute catch up on current affairs.



i keep telling myself that i am confident of getting into ntu but after so long (since after results were out), i still can't stop worrying and thinking that i might not be able to make it into ntu, given the stiff competition. shucks! it's so frustrating lah.. everyone's telling me i'll be fine. i guess they're just trying to be nice and comforting. but who knows? seriously, who knows what'll happen in future?



argh! the thing is, i don't even feel like getting in there so why am i so bothered? perfectionism is acting again, this time quite against my will. ok i shall just take it easy and see what happens. take it easy. take it easy. take it easy.

random photos taken on different occasions

random photos taken on different occasions!

sky on the morning of 27 march! are these stratus clouds? always thought they were, but a check in the net says it's altocumulus clouds. hmm..any geographers around?

funny happenings on msn ;p

my friend draws nice mr. stickmans online :)

poor froggies waiting to be eaten. :( saw them at koufu in pasir ris while having dinner with granny.

hazelnut frappe and oreo frappe...

...with a faceless friend.

i saw a mascot that day! but seriously, since when do mascots come out at 9pm at night?o.O it was darn funny lah!

to you as well :)

我们都该在心里数数感动得次数
'Look back at the happy times and countdown to happier ones.' :)

知足 就是一种快乐 :)

那天你和我 那個山丘 那樣的唱著 那一年的歌
那樣的回憶 那麼足夠

life's pretty good for me now. hope it can remain this way lah..but well, we all know it can't. it's not possible, so i really want to treasure the moments now.. got to keep reminding myself. i mean, i've said before that i quite enjoy working at my workplace, my status in the company seems to be doing me good..but only for now. i know i can't be a temp forever..that's not very good. and like what majella said, time seems easier to pass while working, at least my life more structured now and i feel like i'm passing each day with a purpose, and feeling happy that i've just made someone's (or some people's) lives(work) easier each day.

meeting up with friends once in a while is good too! just to chat and haha, laughing at each other can be quite entertaining too! ;p and having friends working in the same company, or the same area's real cool too! get surprises once in a while when you bump into them in the toilet or at traffic lights. ;D

anyway i think i've been quite distracted and not been disciplined to keep up with the news. :( brought newspaper cuttings to work but never really had the time to read them. rahhs.. interview's next week!! really hope it's gonna be free and easy.. which i don't think so lah. crap.. just hope i won't be tongue-tied! seriously..i think i'm never good at interviews anyway. can't think of one that i didn't screw up.

side track: can anyone tell me why you would ask for a person's address? it's kinda weird..haha! been thinking a bit about it..haha sending wedding invitation? i'd love to go! HAHA ok i think i need to sleep more to avoid such weird thoughts. but anyway, who knows? some people are just good at reading minds. ;p






it's friday! woo~ time passes real fast this week! swimming and running this weekends! :D