busyy..i'm busy!!

uh i'll probably be MIA-ing for the next three to four days because of work :( still aat suntec but the whole event is very different! this time there's well-dressed angmohs to look at.. keke! going to see lots of 'big heads' of companies. hah! quite exciting eh! visit me at level one information counter tomorrow, and at level six's on monday and tuesday if you're free! hahaha.. like who will lah! ;p okays gotta sleep already!

will be uploading the photos i took in AJ soon! the ones in cedar U! haha... stay tuned! :D

been busy these days...

with work and being sick. hai... it's the second time this month that i'm down with sore throat, and this time, fever as well. :( wonder if it's detrimental to take two courses of antibiotics withing a month.. haha! but i think i don't have much of a choice cuz i've got to work this weekend again. this time, still at suntec convention centre but it's a corporate IT fair by SAP. the pay's quite good but sadly, i'm only working for 2 days. eight per hour plus 1.5x per hour after the first eight hours. cool! probably will earn over a hundred bucks in two days :) but seriously, i'm definitely more keen on office jobs cuz they're less challenging physically. heh!

been talking to people more nowadays, at work and at home. it's nice hearing events and thoughts from different people's point of view, about events that i've never been through. like the australian private plane that entered our airspace without an approved flight plan, it's different when you hear it from a person working in the SAF; how a person's job requires her to test bacteria in food and to taste airline food in a pressured room, it's a job that i've never thought of before.

the job stint at career expo introduced me to four people at very different stages of their lives, all of which i'll never be able to experience. eileen started working after her O Levels, being an air stewardess and now in the sales department at JobsDB; ayie's from Philippines, studied computer science and is now in the marketing department at JobsDB. they've taken a very different path from mine but are both doing well enough in their fields. kind of admire them, for their ability to get decent jobs although they're not university graduates. it's tough in singapore if you don't have a university certificate, i think, but these two individuals managed it rather well, in their own ways. it just made me realise that the world is so big with opportunities, there must be something for me, as long as i'm game enough to take up challenges even if it means to work from the very bottom. it made me feel less hopeless about my life after the A's or even University.

weiqiang graduated from nus after doing his diploma in SP; vincent's waiting to enter university after his NS. both have a rather clear goal in life, and are pretty determined to fulfil their dreams. quite impressed by weiqiang's courage to want to be an entrepreneur, and he's been reading a lot about many things, i think. i've never thought of entrepreneurship, not enough courage, not enough knowledge..haha! vincent's going into business in university, kind of envious of his strong will and decisiveness. till now, i'm still unable to make up my mind. ;(

actually it's been fun working at career expo because of the nice people i met there. but it's sad cuz just when we're getting to know more about one another, it's time to leave. a friend once told me that she tends to become too attached to places and people that don't last, and i agree totally with that. maybe i'm just too emotional, typical of pink hormones isn't it?

Career Expo Hall 403

Registration counter! and of course, hardworking staffs like me ;p

Behind the scenes: the lappie, and the passes that you need to enter the hall.

Nice people i met on the job! Eileen and Ayie, people i talk to everyday! :D

there's more to life than dwelling on the problems we face, isn't it? i'll learn and try to be strong, in every sense of the word.

it's starting again

certain things,when it doesn't happen for a while, you tend to forget it. you forget the stress, the pain, the fear, the agony of it all. it's part of human, isnt it? we just dont learn and rememer our lessons. it just gets you when you least expect it... now, tonight, it's back again. i don't know why we have to be put through all these shit, and it just seems so inevitable. i feel so helpless cuz there's really nothing i can do about it. tears used to take care of these things, but as i grow up, tears are just a temporary get-away. there's more to do apart from crying, after crying. i need to think... think think and think hard enough of how to react to situations, as a grown-up. i need to protect mum as much as i can... and i start to dread the nights that sister stays out late. it makes me feel lonely. and tonight, i finally realise what im dreading about the nights when im the only sane person in the house. it's not only about me... it's much bigger than this. but i feel helpless... i'm choking up and i can't stop, even as i'm typing this. i don't know how long can i take this. i'd always hoped that this would all end, but it just wouldn't.

the days

today was stay-home day. woke up with an aching back, on the right side only, but that's bad enough. movement was so restricted, though i think i'm the one restricting it to avoid the pain. argh! i hate back aches... it's been a long time since i had it. grr... i hope the pain will be gone tomorrow, need to do better things than stay home and watch coffee prince on youtube. ;p

went for training for the career fair job yesterday. OMG waste of my time lah, they couldn't even have a proper presentation done. we were suppose to learn how to use their system and it ended up being a screwed presentation and there was no hands-on (although they promised one). four-hour training ended in two hours, but luckily we're still paid for four. :D

asked majella out of coffee on sunday afternoon, just to catch up cuz it's been some time since we met. original plan to meet at coffee bean switched to eating sesame and peanut paste at B1 cuz there were so many people at coffee bean. :( walked around and bought a top from G2000. decided to call kooey out too... heh since we thought she should be at home on a sunday afternoon. ended up loitering outside coffee bean cuz majella and i really wanted coffee, waiting for a three-seat table, kinda chased two aunties away in the process. ;( majella's sudden 'i see her!' gave me a shock.. haha! didnt understand it for the first three seconds. hah, we saw ms zhu sitting at macs with her friends. aiyoh with majella around... anything can happen. or rather, the same thing always happens. for a person who have never bumped into her, it's quite a nice surprise actually. :) talk about repelling forces o.O

gonna do something fun and exciting on thursday together with congming..haha! update when the time comes! hoho! friday's gonna be my first day at work, and dinner with two great people! hope there'll be photos to post. till then, tata!

you ran 10km! what is this??

this is 3km. and i'm very tired. hahaha! that was my reply to my sister that day when we went running on the usual route. :( my stamina is gone fast. not as if it was fantastic anyway. haha.. just amazed at how i ran the 10km without training to that distance o.O i dont know if i mentioned this before, but those around me would know, that i'm really no runner quality. i've always struggled at 2.4km, and i'm always so inferior in that aspect. it's just so unfair that some people are just born runners, they dont really have to be consistent in training and they can still run fast enough.

then again, i see the parallel in the other aspects of my life - in studies especially. it seems like i have to try extra hard at almost everything i do to get at least a decent result. well i guess some people might just be born with it. the aptitude for studies, the high EQ... you name it. and then i remembered what someone said to me, or my class rather, that if she had to put in 10 hours of hardwork, as compared to others who only needed 5, to achieve what she wanted, she would. well, that statement struck a chord with me then, and even till now, because it is so me. sadly though, i havent really been living up to that.

Linger-ing in the rain

it's a rainy night... been a long time since i'd the raindrops bringing me to lallaland. the weather nowadays, oh well.

went to watch Linger's preview today..free! haha! but sad to say, it's really bland... the storyline, everything. it's the first movie that i've no feelings after watching: no left-over laughing gases, no tear-stained cheeks... nothing. the ending was like 'oh, so the show ended'. luckily it was foc, if not i'd have killed myself. so to those who are intending to watch it, go if you've nothing better to do. ;p

today's afternoon had me all excited cuz i thought the chance had come, my banking job! but er... no. false alarm. so all i got was another consultant at raffles' recruit express. hello vivien!something good was that this time round, she's from the banking and finance department in RE so i guess the job offers would be something i'm looking for! well, at least i hope so! anyway, i've got the career fair's job to clear, and a pending job at orchard area.

dropped by wisma today since i was at raffles place earlier. aiyoh, talking about the mrt... i'm no longer on concession! SOBS terrible terrible shit! just when i'm in the mood to shop. okay actually i realised this a week before already. so frustrating! the trip down to raffles from bishan today costs me > $1 in mrt fare. and i'm so not used to hearing 'beep' instead of 'beep beep'.. i almost forgot to tap out when i was on a bus too! o.O feeling the pinch now when i'm travelling around, and it's gonna get worse when i start work.











i miss being a student! i miss being on concession! i miss going to school!

back to cedar...

... to an empty building. :( sigh! i'm still wondering what's there to renovate/rebuild. cedar is so pretty! maybe they should consider AJ instead.. when is AJ due for PRIME? :/ it's quite sad that i couldnt go back earlier when there's still people around, all because of the A's. but anyhow, cm and i went back to take some photos before it's gone. we spent about 2hours ++ walking around, can you believe it? it's quite scary actually (dangerous maybe), the whole school was so quiet and empty. i dont think anyone will come to our rescue if anything were to happen :/ but still it was a worthwhile trip! CONGMING! we need to go to 3 geylang bahru soon!! haha!

the way in... so familiar!

isn't cedar beautiful? :)


whee~ feels like home! this is the 'eye of cedar'.
you know, i never noticed what's written on it till that day...
we're never tired of jump shots eh? ;p the shadows are cute too!

i like this :D (both top & bottom)
the 'grand stand'.

i guess this is what keeps the track girls going...
what was i doing??? (congming... thanks ah... )
this is a prepared shot okay!
this photo looks nice, the way the objects all fit nicely into the frame :)
and i shall end with a nicer photo of myself, at the 1st level empty corridor. haha this phrase sounds so so so familiar, yet it seems so foreign now. :/
now, would anyone tell me why cedar is due for PRIME? if this is the case, i think AJ is overdued for PRIME. haha!

anyway, sidetrack a little... i think i'm getting a job soon! apart from the one at career fair! oh yes, do come down for career fair from 18-20 jan if you're free, visit me! haha no lah, bring your family or friends who are looking for jobs! :)