Lonely X'mas eve...

Lonely...im ms lonely...i have nobody...all on my own...

haha..ok im really 闷到发慌. it's x'mas eve and im all alone in my room. sobs! doing homework initially, and now i've succumbed to the temptation of the lappie. :( but really i cant stand spending my x'mas eve burying myself in work. sigh, if u're wondering why, it's because i've tons of work undone. Econs - 20 mcqs, 2 25m essays and 2 case studies, physics - started on 2 pages, maths - 2 tutorials and 7 pages left of the 22-page 'marathon maths rev questions'(i've given up on that!). yes, thats the pathetic state im in now. :'(

i think i really have no life (cindy..now u know). sister has gone out with her b gang to celebrate x'mas, leaving me all alone at home. sigh..and guess what? i cant even go out coz of the tons of work i have, and even if im gonna aandon all my burdens to go out and have fun, my friends wont be as willing as i am. thus the state im in now...

it's x'mas eve..i should make a wish, no, i should make wishes. wahaha! im greedy.
1. i wish to finish all my work b4 school reopens. which is mission impossible 4 for me. and notice i said wish, not want, because wishes usually do not come true. it'll be wishful thinking on my part. *grins
2. i wish santa would give me a big-enough toy to hug to sleep ie. it must be at least 40cm tall.hahaha.. best if it's pooh and friends or the big tortoi at mini toons.
3. i wish i can shed 5 kilos in the next year... haah sounds like a new year resolution.
4. lastly of course, i HOPE i'll be studious enough to mug hard for EVERY tests and exams faithfully.

and now, i wonder if santa's listening. do santa read blogs too? hmmmm...

on a lighter note, im going for x'ams dinner with daddy mummy and sister tmr! yayy... going big O to eat. i'll come back with pictures...hopefully im not too engross with my food.haha!

to end this entry, i'd wish all of u a MERRY HOLLY JOLLY X'MAS! and a wonderful year ahead too! and to me of course..hehehe!









如果她愿意
我想给她整个心
我想永远照顾她
我承诺。。。
nice lyrics, from a song that i cant rmb the title.

爱情小信箱

‘一個人
可能會有很多個抽屜
也可能只有一個
　
很多抽屜的人
每個抽屜都可能裝不同的東西
一個是愛情 一個是友情 一個是親情 一個是工作 一個是....
當面對愛情時 打開愛情的抽屜 珍藏每一份回憶
不讓工作上的不順利 跟家人的爭執破壞兩人相處的時光
當面對工作時 打開工作的抽屜 收集工作的點點滴滴
當面對其他事情時 關上工作的抽屜別讓他干擾你
　
有的人可以將每一個抽屜都整理好
活的很自在
有的人雖然有很多抽屜
卻亂塞一通
亂了所有的秩序
　
有的人只有一個抽屜
將所有的東西都往裡塞
終於有一天受不了了
抽屜 翻了
只能頹坐在地上
不知如何是好

一個抽屜也好
很多抽屜也好
重要的是知道自己想要的是什麼 否則再多的抽屜
塞了一堆不知該不該丟東西
煩的還是自己
　
工作一陣子
有時真的覺得該休息一下
想想什麼才是自己想要的
不希望等千帆過盡
才發現
原來過去
對自己而言竟沒有任何意義
白白有著抽屜
卻沒有留下任何東西
願大家永遠都無緣感受這種遺憾’

很多时候都希望能像作者所说的，在做某件事的时候只打开一个抽屉。但是人是有感情的，很多时候都会感情用事。如果不以平常心对待那件事，对我们身边的人、对自己公平吗？

很多抽屉的人- 是代表着很多负担？还是能够把自己的人生处理得很好的象征？
只有一个抽屉的人- 是否就能活得轻松自在？还是在抽屉撑不住的时候一起崩溃？

对我来说，一个人的生活不应该环绕在一个人或一个活动身上。不然，在那一方面低潮的时候，就会像撑不住的抽屉一样崩溃。

weird 灵感 on a sick and rainy day

Toro's version of 暴风雨
爱就像暴风来袭　说来就来　说去就去
忘不了的伤痛让它沉默在冰天雪地
爱就像暴风来袭　改变不了　无法继续　
望着你天使般的眼睛　
说爱你　说我爱你

my version:
sore throat 像暴风来袭　说来就来　说去就去
想忘了的伤痛让它沉默在冰冷雨滴
cough也像暴风来袭　改变不了　无法继续　
望着你恶毒般的痰沫　
说恨你　说我恨你

muahaha..i think im 精为天人. i guess the words are wrong but the pronunciation is there. ahaha.. i think the words for the altered version's so cool! hmm..i wonder if there's some copyright law thing, but anyway i mean no harm in changing the lyrics. Just to amuse my little mind.










拥有了是否就要开始失去？
我想是吧。。。
‘天下无不散之筵席’
应该就是这个意思。

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Affinity

Sometimes i resign to fate. Im not a person who doesnt believe in fate, nor am i a person who attribute everything that happens to me to fate. However, i've realised there's something i've experienced all my life, that is really the doing of fate. i cant find a reason not to. It seems like if there's something i really like or want in my life, i would get it. But somehow, it'll be taken away from me a short while later. Be it people, or things/activities i take interest in.

Maybe i take things a little too hard sometimes, or maybe i think a little too deep. But i enjoy doing so, thinking about things that happen and why did thing turn out in that way. At the same time, i give myself a little time to wander into a dreamer-state where im free to think and behave without restrictions. Reality is a tad too harsh on everyone; humans like me need to indulge in some fantasy dreaming.

Okay, im digressing. Well, till now i still havent quite arranged my thoughts about THE phenomena, mere acceptance was my only reciprocation. Maybe i should stop being a fervent admirer of things, too much for my own good. Just like being in love, the deeper you are into a relationship the deeper the wounds inflicted upon breaking up.

I guess i'll just have to learn to appreciate and treasure what i have now, every minute that it is in my possession, and not even think of the time when i'll lose it.

fell ill today, having a really bad throat. must be the 打鸡扒 i had yesterday.

feeling bad and moody. Just nice a time for a dreamer to emerge.









Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened.
And if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have.

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