new haircut!

woohoo!!i had a haircut like finally!! and it's quite nice i think, though i cant really tie it up properly. hmph. i'd wanted to chop off this stack of hay for like so long already. FINALLY!!
wahahaa..so happy. okay. guitar concert is coming! 26 May.. soon soon soon! And guess what, because they printed an extra 200 tix due to overwhelming response, we are forced to sell more. hmph..what rubbish?! so i volunteered to sell 3 more. Like omg..how to sell? sigh..any takers??!! Please come coz im performing!! whahaha..and if u're there, remember to spot for me! whee~~
Oh and my sis went to Redang..somewhere in M'sia and she's coming back tomorrow. Hope she'll have a safe journey! *Prays hard*








Monday! Happy monday!

男人不該讓女人流淚

妳說我讓妳看不清楚　
妳說妳害怕在愛中迷途　
捨不得妳哭
如果是我讓妳覺得無助
讓我告訴妳 我對這一切有多在乎　
如何證明我深情的吻　
才能呵護妳脆弱的靈魂
我願用生命阻擋任何能傷害妳的人　
就算被冷落 就算犯錯 我都不走
喔~相信我無悔無求
我願為妳放棄所有　
男人不該讓女人流淚 至少我盡力而為
喔~相信我別再閃躲
我願陪妳 直到最後
男人不該讓女人流淚
至少我盡力而為 相信我
　
　

因為你在

上一秒我還有點迷惑 下一秒你就把勇氣送給我
陪我找出口 不怕走丟 是你溫暖的雙手牽著我抵抗寂寞
就算麻煩下一秒會經過 你的微笑讓整個世界變輕鬆
帶我離開混亂的星球 向絕望說拜拜 迎接最美的感動
快樂因為你在 幸福感覺就跟著旋轉
快樂就是現在 所有孤單通通置身事外

快樂因為你在 幸福感覺等你來狂歡
快樂就是現在 所有難過通通置身事外
快樂因為你在 所有難過都置身事外

bad wkend + bad monday..

sobs. Mothers' Day was screwed yesterday over a small matter- like salmon that cost $1.90? Sigh, my family and i was at sakae yesterday happily celebrating mama's day. And it all started from my mum wanting to order 3 salmon fishheads and i objected coz it was really too much! that was only once and my dad had to go on and on and on about it (i mean, he's always like that). And i dont know if it's because of his ego or what, he threatened to scold out loud so that everyone could hear it. i was like, hello?? 2 adults acting in such a childish manner. And my mum was of course pissed, i can see it from her face lah. But my dad didnt get the hint and continued his nonsense. So that was it, my mum took her bag and walked off! Like wow! Great..mothers' day celebration is just screwed like that. well, thinking back i wonder if it was my fault. Perhaps a little, but still i think things wouldnt have gone so wrong if my dad didnt keep harping on it.
Sigh.
Dad and Mum are still at loggerheads even till now, like a whole day has passed. =(
Sigh..my and my stupid mouth. =X =X =X Mum just came home herself today although dad was at home. And it's like obviously she's still angry lah coz she's the kind who is willing to wait half an hour for a bus home than to walk home herself (it's a short distance btw..it's walkable). And it's like everyday without fail she'd call dad to fetch her. But not today.... hmph.
Also, today i got scolded for not completing my presentation for geog. As in the whole class got scolded too. So sad.. and ms zhu was really angry, didnt see her like that before. =(=(=(=(=(=(
And it was so yuan wang lah, xueqin said she'd do it by today but she didnt. And i called her twice and she didnt pick up her phone. Thought she went for tournament but jiamin and lydia insisted that there was no tournament today so i was so puzzled. How can a person just disappear into thin air? Oh well, it turned out that she did go for tournament. i was so pissed! i wasnt at first mind you, just worried. But it's like she told me that she couldnt open the file (i presume it's the one from the guys coz i opened mine many times) so she couldnt do the compilation. Yeah..i mean i understand these things could happen at times but she should at least tell me about it so that i can at least do something about it. Maybe i could finish it by geog lesson and save us from all the scolding. i mean it just spoils our day and the teacher's day as well.
Oh wells.. now we've decided that May shall do the compilation and i'm praying hard she'll do it. Or else it'll be all back to me. HMPH! X my fingerrrrsss.
Oh btw did i tell u my peculiar encounter at the temple on Vesak Day? my hair got burnt my the ashes from some ppl's joss sticks. so pissing can? i wonder who's that POS who dropped it on my ponytail. Sigh..why did i have to tie up my hair? i didnt do that for previous years. i thought it was clever to do so coz it'll be freaking hot that day. well it was, but as a result my hair got burnt (literally). it was all frizzy and everything. yucks Moral of the story: dont tie up your hair when u go to the temple. coz it's like, the start of your ponytail will be perpendicular to your head right and if the ashes fall, it will be collected on your hair. GEDDIT?













I'M SORRY....

i am a POS

today is a bad day.
just feel that im an utter failure.
i mean, how can things go so wrong?
i think i am a big problem.
nothing has been really good since school started but still i should count my blessings.
today 05/05, i screwed my physics test; i screwed my interview; i couldnt play guitar well.
rahh...physics test, hai..i was so terribly lost. couldnt even do a simple specific latent heat qn. it's so simple yet i couldnt do it. forces was worse, left the whole thing blank think it was about 8 or 9 marks. hoorayy..!
my exco interview today, omg. i actually thought quite a bit about the qn they would pose and how i would answer them. but when i was really going thru it, i didnt say what i wanted to. it's like the thought just brushed past and i didnt even get the hint from my brain to speak. POS. how dumb can i get, i mean literally. how dumb can i get? just like when they asked me what qualities i think i possess to be a VP. i said X,XX and XXX. and guess what? i didnt even give examples when i could easily have done so. i mean like organising a fund raising activity and the sec one guides camp. wth. well, i so dont place any hope on getting a position considering the fact that there's so many people vying for that position. i shall be a mugger.
guitar was okay at first but when we played as an ensemble, i kept making mistakes like coming in too early or just missing the whole chord or part of the melody. i think i must be really tired, although i didnt realise it at all. it's like my brain just went blank and i didnt know what was the fingering although i played it like half a minute ago. what is wrong with me?
i really think i should just be a piece of cow dung. at least i could fertilise crops and be of some use.










let's be muggers!

rattles

today is wed, 3 may.
tmr is thurs, 4 may!
tmr is the submission of PI. wth.
and guess what, i did such a stupid thing yesterday by putting my PI draft into mrs yim's pigeon hole coz i didnt know i cant do that. coz she cant mark it and im suppose to have to make an appt with her for VERBAL comments. wth. i mean what's the difference? she still has to write comments on my paper right, it's just a matter of saying it or writing it down. and she said it in front of the whole class lah, make me so malu can? =/ anyway she still called me to give me verbal comments, that was nice of her. =) But the bad part was she always contradicts herself and end up giving me lots of comments that were never brought up although it was the same points. the previous draft i had only 3 areas for improvement and i scored ME(low) for both AE and GI. i thought it was pretty okay but i wanted to push it up to ME totally. But now i ended up being so stressed out coz she gave me so many areas for improvements! i think there's like 5 to 6? and im at my max word limit already-513 words. yeah i might be able to cancel some stuff but i have no time to think so much. should be reaching home about 5-6pm. shucks i feel like pulling my hair out lah. it's like the more i make amendments the more li bu cong xin i get. hmph. there's so much contradiction and confusion in my head now it feels like bursting.
And i have to study for the physics test on fri. arghhh. my physics sucks big time can. oh wells. im so tired, sleeping at 1-2 am everyday and it seems i still have so much to do. god save me!







SMILE even when the going gets tough.

something meaningful...

this is from zhiyong's blog, dated 20 september 2005. I found it really meaningful so i decided to publish it here. Not sure if it's from music diary, well anyway here goes:


面对许多人事物，我们都需要勇气。
暗恋一个人的时候，你需要勇气开口向他表白。
明恋一个人的时候，你需要勇气要求和他牵手。
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选择和一个人一刀两断的时候，你需要更多更多的勇气。
决定把X的号码删除
决定不再和X见面
决定不再和X有任何瓜葛
决定不再为X伤心丁志
勇这个周末很有勇气。
你呢?
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933的Ah Beng现在要点另一个Ah Beng的歌给自己：
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离..
我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我 只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过 但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在哪里...


突然又想听一首Ah Lian的歌:
听着自已的心跳
没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考
并不想被谁打扰..
时间分割成对角
停止你对我的好
瓦解我们的依靠..
在你离开之后的天空
我像风筝寻一个梦
雨后的天空 是否有放晴后的面容
我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动
只能用笑容期待着雨过天晴的彩虹...






whooh..i love music diary!!