haha so amusing! i actually have male celebrity look-a-likes! kangta and rain were the two most unexpected ones. because i can only choose 5 out of the 9 or 10 photos, not all are shown here. but through the 3 tests with different photos, 2 names kept appearing. they are Phyllis Quek and Aya Matsuura. haha don't really know the latter though but i think she's quite pretty. :) shall go try with my friends' photos and see whose faces come out. =P

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

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Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

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Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

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Event @Bottle Tree Park - 18 July 2008

Marshal at one of the game stations. :)

A peek through

nice view from my station

not a well-taken photo, but i liked the feeling of walking along this pathway. :)

i think i might just go back there one day. the peace and serenity is addictive, just by the few hours i've sat there waiting for the games to start. i love Bottle Tree Park!

questionnaire :)

a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

b) tag 4 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

majella woo wen hui tagged me on July 5. (i know that's quite some time back =X but this kinda thing... needs to be in the mood to do it.)

1. if your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
be angry. cry. think, reflect and (try to) be strong again. i'd take it as one of life's lessons and move on.

2. if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
have a happy family, now and in future. :)

3. if you had a free airplane ticket to go anywhere for one month, where would you go?
wah, a round-the-world one? switzerland, zurich, boston, paris, egypt, japan, states and finally thailand! hahaha am i greedy or what? =P

4. what would you do with a billion dollars?
hmm billion dollars? i think i'll keep a third of it and the rest goes to my family, less-known charities that genuinely need help and to the schools i've attended. :)

5. what's your ideal lover like?
(oh well, i don't like being idealistic cuz these things are never true.) but if i have to describe, he would be tall (at least 1.78m), sporty, humourous, family-guy, honest, non-smoker/drinker/gambler and must love me a lot. HAHAHA

6. which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
of course it would be being loved! but i like the feeling of loving someone more, i think. haha i think i like to torture myself =X i've always thought being able to love someone teaches you what love really is. :) for me at least, because i learn best through experiential learning.

7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
depends on whether he loves me too. i believe in reciprocal love. i think it's hard for me to love someone indefinitely if he doesn't reciprocate. i guess i would wait for as long as i can if he loves me too.

8. if the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
ahh get over it lah. haha you mention it's 'like', not 'love' right? to me, liking someone and loving someone is different. Liking is just like a crush, it's easier to get over it. Quote a friend, 'time eats up people's emotions'. i'll let time do it :)

9. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
quite a few. they come to mind at different times of the day.

10. what cheers you up the fastest?
seeing a person i really want to see when i feel like it/ eating something i really want to eat when i feel like it/ hearing a song that i really want to hear... haha

11. how do you see yourself in ten years' time?
confident, mature, capable and happy with a stable job, and with someone to share my happiness maybe? haha how idealistic. tell me that i'm thinking too much.

12. who are currently the most important people to you?
the people i'm close to. and dogs too. :D

13. the person who tagged you, what kind of person do you think he or she is?
hahaha. uhm. happy, childlike, brave (she does things that i'm always thinking twice about), green, skinny, sporty! yes, YOU are suppose to smile when you read this! :)

14. would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
none of the above! =P

15. what do you do during the holidays?
i do what everyone does! eat, slack, sleep, go online, shopping, sports. eat, slack, sleep, go online, shopping, sports. eat, slack, sleep, go online, shopping, sports...

16. would you give your all in a relationship?
obviously! unless at some point in time, you realise the other party doesn't treasure your company anymore.

17. if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i don't believe in loving two persons at the same time. but if i've to choose, it'd definitely be the one i love more.

18. what type of friends do you like?
people with the same frequency. and those that have common activities as me :)

2 people to do this:
- huhdelian
- congming

these are the more possible people who would do it, but congming doesn't have a blog. =X

放弃? 放下?

放弃是懦弱；放下需要勇气

累了，想卸下一些包袱，放慢脚步

读一读云的故事，闻一闻雨的味道

是放弃？还是放下？

纵然暂且不愿退缩，不能洒脱

抱着这样的梦想

也得以释然


adapted from crazycoolcute

at Bottle Tree Park

someone said i look athletic today. hawhawhaw :)

someone:"eh sihui, were you an athlete in school or something?"
me: -stares agape-

hahaha how cool is that?! and that person's someone i just met today during the event. geehee i think that made me high. :D no one, in my 19 years, ever told me i look athletic until today. :D

went to work for half a day today. marshal for Inttra's teambuilding event at Bottle Tree Park. quite a good and happy experience today, not just because of the reward. really liked the place i was at today...though there were the irritating mozzies and heat. the sun wasn't that bad today but i think i still got a little more tanned. met quite a few interesting people today, one of whom i felt she looked really familiar but i just can't pin-point who she reminds me of exactly. her name made it even worse...Belle...i've never knew anyone with this name before and she's like, out of my circle of friends in every aspect. hmmm let's just take it that she has a common face alright. don't really like this 似曾相识 feeling whenever i get it, it's kinda eerie. haha it either makes me really puzzled or just makes my judgement wrong all of a sudden.

today also made me feel that i'm really not an events person, in the sense that i don't think i want to organise any major events if i have a choice. i think i just don't have a flair for it, there's just too many things that my brain can't take. especially those that require me to make on-the-spot decisions. i think i'm not too good at that and i don't wanna try to prove myself wrong cuz i may be right. just felt afraid that my judgement might be wrong but then again, in such situations, any decision made is a good one because it does drive everyone in the same direction and that alone, makes this right. and doing events need passion, cuz it's the thing that will push you on when you have to make many sacrifices and countless hours of OTs for preparation and post-event wrap-ups. i don't think i'm up to it, yet.

on a side note, i received a call from a person called Kenneth from NTU Sports Club, asking if i'd like to join their Sports Camp next week. so damn bloody last-minute eh? kinda put off...and the call came at 10.33pm. HAH to think they have to go to such extent to ask people to go for their camp. i'd always thought they're the 'hottest thing' around where demand for places far exceeds supply? hmmm... fishy stuff. anyway i rejected them. don't think they're my bunch of people, they are fit, pretty, handsome, egoistic...i'm not. just let me be my plain old jane and not subject myself to unnecessary comparisons. futhermore, sunday is my 10k run. don't think my legs, knees and brain are in any good condition to be trashed out during the camp. =X i'm weak...so let me be. and after so long waiting for camp comms to reply, i've kind of thought it through. maybe not going for camps isn't so bad afterall. i think i might need some time to be alone, to do my many stuffs yet to be done. i'd just take fate as it wants me to be.

ahh school's starting in 17 days. freak! this is freaky. i hope time drags itself for the next week or so. i am so not prepared. i promise i'll find the strength to...i just need time.

splash

splashes... ripples ripples ripples...
like water droplets, our actions send ripples in all directions.
we should just be more careful with our words and actions. the older we get, the more we need to be.

first failed attempt

at going back to my primary school! -shruggs- security guard was anal i guess. maybe it's cuz little primary school kids are more gullible that's why more caution had to be taken. =X so sad lah... couldn't even get into the canteen for breakfast can?! ended up eating at sgoon market with yanyi...chatted quite a bit so i guess it's not so bad afterall. ooh and seeing that the sun was so hot today, i decided to go for a swim in the evening! haha i hope i do look a bit tanner now! :D and i realised that sgoon swimming complex has lower charges for entrance! so cool lah...shall drag congming here next time! cleaner (much much cleaner) pool than the one at toa payoh and it's cheaper! :D :D

class outing stuff seems to be going on fine :) phew! really not good at such stuff and considering the number of times we met up since after the A's, the apprehension that i'm feeling is not uncalled for. glad that more people are considering to come! PLEASE COME PEOPLE!!! hahaha wondering who'd see(hear) my plea over here. cliques are scary, once a person decide not to come, it'd most probably mean a few others are not coming too. gosh i hate chain effects like this. haha not that i'm not guilty of it too. :( just hope sat night will be real fun, though i can't stay out too late. ahhhhhhh shape...i'll kill you. HAHA =P

woooh badminton tmr! wheeee good good good! and a job on friday! double wheeee! some cash in hand would definitely make me feel better when i have the urge to buy stuff. hoho! this week's gonna feel accomplished!

'when it's late at night and you're all alone..'

i think i will become emo. HAHA. crap... just when you realised you're rejected from camp. sucks. why is the world so superficial? or maybe i should be asking myself, why do i not look good enough, in their sense of the word? ah whatever, i think i should be thankful that they actually bothered to send a notification email rather than leaving me waiting for christmas like what the NBS camp comm's shit people did. oh well, i think i'm not meant to be sociable. just when i wanted to meet more people, i didnt get any of the camps. haha shalewoba, for sending out applications late maybe.

anyway, organising a class outing is so shitty. especially when only half replied. duh... if you're not interested, could you just press 2 letters telling me that you're not coming? email is free btw, if you all didn't know. anyway i think i'm just gonna go ahead with it. haha! at least huhdelian is coming! then i won't feel bored... hohoho. am thinking of mind cafe but don't really know which branch is better. looked through the list of games available at each branch... might just go for the prinsep or purvis one. looks like the more accessible ones. :) anyway it's so sad that i can't stay out too late cuz i've gotta run the shape thing the next day. rahhhh... just shoot me. i don't even know why i signed up for 10km. my dear sister...thank you very much. i think this run is making me not want to run for stanchart in december. but i like the tee...haha damn shit lah me. oh wells, i don't know. maybe then there will be friends to jio me go run, and maybe i would! =X

was packing my really messy room today and found a lot of funny stuffs. and i think i got the can't-bear-to-throw-things-away syndrome. as in those notes... geog and math ones, she bu de to throw them away. just reminds me of the late nights i spent writing them...they're my sweat and uh... lost-sleep. haha... i think i might just keep some of them. as for math...i keep thinking i might want to tutor next time. but then again, even if i do i don't think i'd tutor JC math. it's too horrendous to teach them, cuz i have the fear of not knowing how to solve them myself. =X okay yah, it's still there in a pile. my sis is so gonna scream at me.

oh wells, certain things just revive those memories. some that i can't bear to... or maybe don't want to remember. but they're all there, the familiar handwriting and smiley..the scribbles the questions and the memories that come with everything. i'm not sure if i want to keep them. those scribbles of lyrics or inspiration that come on random days...found some of them today hidden between sheets of assignments and notes. haha! probably fated to just chance upon them through the many pages i flipped today. i think i might have missed out some too. that's something i like about packing old stuffs...cuz you might just find some long-lost notes and scribbles that you've long forgotten about.

memories...they're just like long-lost memories waiting to be re-discovered. if i could still remember... if i still want to.




i lost my faith you gave it back to me
you said no star was outta reach
you stood by me and i stood tall

i'm sorry, old man! :(

i stepped on old man's paw just now, but he didn't growl at me. ahhhhh :( i feel so bad. it's not the first time. i don't know how to describe that feeling, it's just feeling very sorry for him and at the same time, apologetic and... sad. i mean, the reason behind the reaction, or rather the lack of reaction just shows the trust, bond and love he has for his owners. it's something that comes only with the years and faith built up over these years. one can never fathom the bond that exist between dogs and their owners simply because it's unspeakable. it's the common understanding between them that only dog owners will know. i remember he used to growl at as over the slightest things...that was i think, probably 10 years ago.

mr. lucky, please stay with us for at least the next 3 years, please?

领悟

常常在渴望拥有与害怕失去之间矛盾。渴望拥有但又害怕又失去的一天；害怕失去而不敢试着去争取使不是懦弱的行为？因为存有害怕，所以不敢争取。也因为害怕，在拥有的同时并不完全快乐，感觉一切不会持久。心里总是很纳闷，如此虚拟、虚幻的事根本不堪一击，但自己怎么还要硬强求呢？很可悲吧？

那是前些时候写的一段文字，今天无意的在本子上看到。很巧的心里又有一些新的领悟。

‘很多事情其实很简单，使我们把它想复杂了。’偶然的在电视上听到剧中人物所说的一句话，突然就有了共鸣。是啊，自己有时候真得想太多，太深了。有时真的不知道又没有这个必要，苦了自己也苦了别人。太理智的脑袋是否应该有放纵的时候？有，是有放纵过。就在前几个月，但好像因为少放纵所以出错了。

在外界的影响下决定放纵。说放纵，因为这不是我一贯的作风。真的有想过不持久的问题，肯定过因大家所处的位置，所以知道不管兜多大的圈子也只会有一个下场。一直以一种不安分的心态见面，只是一味的随着外界的影响， 因为只有这样才能解答我心里深处的一个问题：到底多久？今天好像有答案了，就是这么久吧。不是真的从此以后不联络，只是真的明白了，我所谓的界限是存在着的。学会了以后要对自己的想法多一些信心，把持著自己的一些信念，真的会活得比较快乐。如果身为朋友真的可以随时见面，说话聊天一派胡言都可以。这个不一样。嗯，界限是存在的，所谓礼多人不怪，就是的样子。

Courage is

拿着斧头到处说自己要去打虎的人，并不是真正勇敢的人，他只是因为无知而无所畏惧。会惧怕的人是因为他有智慧。有智慧的人不是用斧头而是用陷阱来抓虎。明明惧怕却还是执行，并为此发挥才智的人， 这才是真正有勇气的人。

- 祺霞 太王四神记

Appreciate everything but get attached to nothing...

i've decided i'd change it to 'Appreciate everything, get attached but know when you have to loosen it.' isn't this a better way of viewing life? to me, it's almost impossible to appreciate things but not get attached to it, especially after sufficient time has passed. i'm really an emotional and melancholic person, thus i can't not get attached to things and people around. it just dawned upon me today... just sudden realisation that made me ask for the add. i've just done it, just in case i decide to retreat into the turtle shell of mine again. :) i think meeting and parting is just part of life, and emotions too come with it. so i guess i should just live for the moment and appreciate things that come my way. anyway, appreciation without attachment cannot be whole-hearted appreciation, and feeling attached without appreciating is just mindless craze.

went back to AJ (again) today. ate vegetarian stuffs that i like. hoho! bought 2 muffins today too! always wanted to try this stall's muffins since it looks not bad and it's been around for more than half a year already, so should be quite nice. majella thought it wasn't nan chi, but i thought it was pretty ok. ate the oreo one and gave the raspberry oat to ms zhu. :) sister thought it was bo liao to go back and do such stuff, but seriously i think i needed to do something random to make myself happy and relaxed before school starts and after such a long period at work. at least i've fulfilled one of the few things i really want to do before all the crazy school stuffs start piling in. i think the next thing is to visit the zoo and maybe get my level 1 to be a certifed belayer. :) then i get to belay people too! which means cherling will get to climb even if there's only both of us at climbing! wooh! okay i'd better set my heart, brain and soul to go apply. =X anyway, majella and i drew something today and gave it away...hopefully she can appreciate it. didn't really care if it was childish or random or nonsensical, i just wanted to give it. let me be oblivious and do what i really want to do...for once. at least it made me feel good, about not thinking too much. oh, and today made me realise i can act rather well over the phone. haha, being an imposter for 15 seconds or so and surprising someone can be really so fun. i think the muffin saved the day. :) 'i'm cheryl from council...' HAHA cute.

note: i drew the right one only.

tada! i think it's quite nice eh! i think majella disagrees quite a bit. :(

before i turn away again, just let me.