Superficiality Part II - 王八蛋

把你的快樂建在我的痛苦上
當我在哭的時候你坐在那邊笑
你這個沒有心的王八蛋
你會有一天後悔
你會有一天後悔
在我的傷口上面灑鹽巴
跟銀行經理說我信用差
你看不順眼你就開口罵
你會有一天後悔
你會有一天後悔
我的心好像有顆大的石頭
我的頭好像原子彈要爆炸
我的夢好像破了洞的氣球
我真的好倒楣
你會有一天後悔
你忌妒我的車子就是比你 ㄆㄚ
你笑我考試考的比你差
你吃不到的你就特別哈
你會有一天後悔 不要得意會後悔

Haha..heard this song on the radio and i thought it really expresses what i'm thinking nowadays. It's called 王八蛋. Cool right? Exactly what i wanna scream into those fakers' face! It's Superficiality Part II i guess. haha. Kinda love David Tao's songs more and more now. A really talented individual but just that his looks isn't very stunning. See... life's unfair. And i strongly believe that when god gives you one thing, he'll take away another. So in some sense, that's fair.
Don't you share the same sentiments?












我只想哭只想哭只想哭。。。
黑色柳叮- David Tao

Superficiality Part I

I've come to know this word even better after I came to jc. Yes, I have encountered this quite a few times in secondary school, like the presence of fakers in CCA. But all these were rather minor and luckily these people were not given opportunities they might have gotten if their fake-ness were not seen through.

Sadly in my life now, this is no longer the case. If only people could open their eyes wider to see through the inadequacy of these people. In my short six months in AJ, I’ve experienced a few cases of such unfairness. How would you feel if you’ve lost to someone else because of your looks? Haa.. didn’t think such a thing could happen. Like what the hell? If I had lost to her because of my in capabilities, yes I concede. But NO! So what if you’re pretty, slim and speak well? If you are not capable, you’re just another bimbo on Orchard Road. To me, what makes a difference among people is your inner strength, how well you work with people and how you manage your team. Well, I can’t say that I can do all that very well, but at least i try to use as much of my common sense as possile to solve problems. At least I have much more common sense that some people out there. Just because you’re a gem or just look pretty, you get your wish. Sure, but I assure you that is pure luck and this won't last you through your life. Anyway I still think you lack some common sense. wtf . What is the world coming to?

Not only that, just because you look so good in front of the teacher, you are a leader. Right… what is the world coming to once again? What character traits you display in front of me just put me off. It just shows how responsible you are as an individual and in a team. Sometimes in a team, you just can’t say you wanna quit and then you quit. It’s a team thing you know, how can you be so irresponsible? If you are working alone, fine. Go ahead, quit. It doesn’t even bother a shit out of me. But now, what you are doing affects the whole team, so it’s not just about you, it’s about the whole team. And can I remind you? What you want to achieve may not be as easy to achieve as what you think, you need to work much harder than that. Well, I’ve seen through you. But what’s so frustrating about it is that the whole world thinks you are capable. Think only. So it’s not a fact, mind you. To me you are just another faker I’d have to meet along my journey of life. So what if you’re able to speak to us and order us around? You’ve shown me that you are such a weak character that I seriously think you don’t deserve what you’re getting. I don’t blame the teachers for not seeing thru you, all in all, they only know you in class and not personally. That’s just the unfairness of it all; and that’s what I really can’t stand. Life is so bloody unfair! I just feel like screaming in front of everyone to tell them what you really are, what a faker you’ve been all along.

After some thought, I attribute all these to the fact that these people come from nsch. I don’t know why but there’s just this difference between people from nsch and bsch. It’s just the difference in mindset and character. Of course I’ve seen bsch people behaving rather badly. But most of the time, it’s really these people who are so N who are really different. I guess it’s just people with different mentality. Yes, they may be here with us, but what they possess are just a skill of gniggum. Perhaps it’s the people I meet. Those people with weaker characters are from nsch, I really don’t understand why. Well, I think we’re just from different worlds, just say I have this thing against this kind of people. Bias, discrimination… whatever you call it. And this you im talking about happens to be from nsch too. Such coincidence huh?

If only you knew what I know, that'll be purrfect.












Luck will come back to me...
With you, anything is possible.
我会让你刮目相看。。。

Bad day

today is the first day of school after the CT.
today i got back my first paper.
Mathematics.
I used to love this word because i used to see an A beside it.
Now...i just find it so irksome. What is so bloody wrong with me? i just screwed one of my H2 paper that i wanted so so so badly to pass. The one that i thought i would pass. Well, just like what people always say, the higher you climb, the harder you fall. hahs
And did you know that i planned to fail physics and economics? Now that i've failed my maths, does it mean that im just going to flunk al my H2 subjects? FREAK! I DON"T WANT TO! ARGGHHSS! Well, you might say that almost everyone scores like that. But i so don't wanna score this freaking score. rahhh
Hai..i'll just have to see how i fare in my other papers. Geography, god will i be able to ace it or at least get a B? I don't wanna disappoint her. :(
After school i mhad two meetings with the ndp comm. The first one went rather smoothly (thanks to Nashita for making the proposal so wonderful!!!and of course to my other team members. :) ) But the second one just put me off. That 2 j2 guys, my goodness! It was an eye opener i must say. Their proposals were so skimpy and brief, and they had the cheek to say mine was 'too rough'. This is called the 'pot calling the diamond black'. It's not even 'the kettle'. i must admit mine wasn't perfect but i made an effort to do research and find pictures to illustrate my idea. What about them? Just a few lines of broken english? A few months to their A levels and they can still be writing 'the picture as show below'. Come on, i think a j2 can do better than this?
And what's worse, they attempted to make it seem that my ideas were their and went on explaining the ideas to the teacher. wth. Of course i didnt let them get away with it. It's my idea afterall and i knew it better. So i explained it more clearly to the teacher, anyway they didnt do a good job in explaining coz it wasn't their idea. Both of them were so 'yesman' Anything that the teacher says, they'll go yeah yeah..wth. Can't u have some opinions of your own. Gosh..i don't know how im going to work with these two characters for the next two weeks. Thank god i still have Jewel. Even jewel says she's not too keen in doing this board stuff and the main problem lies in that two characters. Oh well..we have to be more professional about this. Get it over and done with. Seriously, i would like to sue them for plagerism if i could.
And a teacher just dampened my passion for learning physics. Have you ever heard a teacher telling you that you should drop physics if you want. And 'do it fast'. The reason? So that he'll have one less student to teach since we're scoring so badly. And telling you that 'you drop already, it'll be better for me'? im amazed that a teacher can actually tell his students that. Indirectly, you're actually making your job more difficult because there's no such thing as dropping a H2 subject, and what have you to gain if a student is so demoralised as to fail repeatedly? Sometimes i wonder how teachers nowadays are trained. Don't they go through training courses that teaches them how to create a better learning attitude mentally. The tone when you teach, the things you say to a student may have a larger impact on the person than you intended. If you're always sighing in front of your students and looking exasperated when the class does not understand your teachings, what effect will it have on your students. i don't know if you feel that way, but for me, i think it makes me feel that we are so stupid that the teacher can find no other ways to teach us. Or is it a catalyst for us to see the teacher's inadequacy? Well, i think there is still a certain level of expectation that a teacher should carry himself/herself well as well as being aware that students do look up to teachers as a role model in one way or another. i would like to question also, the role of a teacher. Obviously, teachers are meant to pass on knowledge to the young generation. If there are no more students interested in learning whatever you are teaching, then are you of any use? Then maybe you should just be a useless blob on my blog.
And yes, i've finished complaining. Thank you for reading. :)












'告诉你我不是一个会认输的人
但我不得不承认
曾跌倒失败
也曾经走在阴霾
从今以后不再
垂头丧气走开
所有人的期待让我站起来
甩掉了阻碍
冲劲全打开
我终于明白
Fly 尽全力才飞起来
没有后悔不后退
我让你刮目相看'
-曹格

Rate my life Quiz

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7
Mind:	6.6
Body:	5.7
Spirit:	6.3
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	4.3
Finance:	5.5
Well, i must say it's quite accurate for some aspects. Here's the analysis: Your Life Analysis: Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately. Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. Your body score is fairly average, which means there is room for improvement. Keep a focus on your physical health. Protect your body as it is your most valuable physical asset. Nutrition, stress reduction, and exercise are key. Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score leaves room for improvement. Consider making a concerted effort to redefine your attitudes and focus your beliefs. Boosting your spirit will lead to greater life satisfaction. Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. You have a rather low love score. While some are lucky, for most of us love doesn't fall in our laps. You must actively work on improving this area. Do not despair, there is someone out there for you. Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal. "You're beautiful. You're beautiful. Your're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place and I don't know what to do cause I'll never be with you. and I don't think that I'll see you again, but we shared a moment that will last till the end." If you are bored... whee..! let's play spot the difference! haha..as u can see these are all the stuff on my table when i was mugging for chemistry last year. i was so bored so i took these pictures. haha..pretty simple yeah? btw, there are 5 differences. Answers: the chocolate bar, the liquid paper, my pencil's cap, my pen and my calaculator's cover. something random.. whoo~! i fell in love with this song man! super nice super motivational! i like!!! so here's 曹格's 刮目相看. Love it too! 告诉你我不是一个会认输的人 但我不得不承认 曾跌倒失败 也曾经走在阴霾 不看不听不说不笑傻傻的发呆 难道我就被打败 多幸运有你 使我的生命充满希望 从今以后不再 垂头丧气走开 所有人的期待让我站起来 甩掉了阻碍 冲劲全打开 我终于明白 Fly 尽全力才飞起来 没有后悔不后退 我让你刮目相看 Just fly 向世界证明我存在 努力过的汗水 不断灌溉美好未来 Cos I can fly Yes I can fly Oh I believe Yes I believe I believe I can fly And here's some photos that were lucky enough to be happily sitting in my inbox! This is botak Lucky. This is a more handsome Lucky- take one! Lucky-take two! HAHAHS! oops! this was captured by me.hehs! So ke ai.. Mr. Bubble This is me! wahah! Okay..enough! haahs..more coming up! [ And if u haven realised it, i changed my font colour coz it's the start of another month. ] santa game from bunnyhero labs CounterData .com home insurance Counter I'm currently reading... Solitaire Mystery by Jostein Gaarder (recommended!!!) Missing by Catherine MacPhail Just Like That by Marsha Qualey Tomorrow belongs to me by Mark Roberts Night Train by Judith Clarke The boy on the bus by Deborah Schupack The Other Side of the Story by Marian Keyes Marley and me (dog lovers will love this, really!)