it's been a while

i think i've got myself lost in the working world. haha! but that's a good thing, in a way cuz time passes quicker than usual. work is quite mundane and the only times i look forward to in a working day are the mornings- where i get to chat a little while having breakfast, lunch- a time to rest my brains and maybe catch up with HDL, and of course, knock-off time! haha! it becomes quite a boring cycle after a while but life's better when you have nice colleagues around, well almost.

got quite pissed off today by a colleague of mine, but seriously i think i cant really blame her cuz because of genuine generation gap, the way we do things are almost quite different. sometimes i hope she'd put herself in my position and understand the state of mind i'm in. i'm only here for about 26 days, so you can imagine how familiar i am with the workings of the department here. i'm not asking for a lot, because all i need is more specific instructions and rationale behind the things you do. maybe it was also my fault cuz i should really spell out everything you want me to do back to you..in that way, i think less errors would be made. the thing is, the rationale only comes after i've done everything wrong. what a waste of time, effort and paper. :( omg... that was really a lesson learnt today. learnt how to keep a positive look despite me boiling within and almost bursting from within. if you'd understand... the feeling of being exasperated, like the why-didnt-you-tell-me-earlier feeling. uh huh.

went running today! which is really good cuz i think i really let off some steam and i felt much much better after! tomorrow's gonna be a great day! shall not be so huh again! :D:D:D








我曾进看见困难变得胆小，不够勇敢
但还是要相信
相信感觉 相信简单

一点点你的微笑
已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持 正好让我学会去爱

double shot rhapsody :)

it feels great when people around you are nice to you. haha! that's kind of an understatement right? in a sense, it feels good to be with nice people. haha okay i can't really find the right words to say now.

first was lunch with majella, and coincidentally i bumped into my ex-colleagues from SAP. cool huh! having a lunch partner is nice! especially so when we dont get to lunch together everyday.. not that im bored having lunch with cindy! of course not!! i'd love to have a companion for lunch, cuz during work hours, im more or less alone. ;(

and today, i received an angpow from my colleague! surprise surprise!! really didn't expect this lah, especially when the company doesn't have a culture of doing so. quite paiseh actually, cuz like not that shou with her yet. her name's lydia, my supervisor in a sense. but then, i actually have four people that i'm helping, so yeah.. it's kinda complex. haha! and she offered me a cake, from the one that they were planning to give the birthday girl, lee choo. hurhur, probably because i helped them to take a photo. ;p i don't really know why, but these events kinda made my day.. made me feel happier! so much so that the day actually passes quicker than other days. i think it's not so much of the giving part that's making me happy, it's more of the interaction with people and the thought of someone sparing a thought for you that cheers me up. (although the stuff received does make an impact in a way, let's be honest lah ;p)

really hope this feeling of happiness can last me.. at least for a month or so longer. :) i know it's hard to go to work feeling happy so i guess i should treasure it. uh maybe you people can come lunch with me more often! haha.. before you all start working again! that'll really brighten up my day!

lunch-ing with congming tmr! wheee~

post new year

it's been some time since i've the energy and time to blog. argh! the wonders of working life.. felt really drained at the end of the day everytime. that explains why i'm always not online for most of the nights in the week. but luckily, i still manage to squeeze some energy out of myself for the people around me. :D for family dinners and meet-ups with friends.

spring-visited majella's house on the 10th.. so last minute that i didn't even bring oranges ;S haiyo felt quite bad lah. and the fact that i was fed with a lot of new year goodies there, thanks to her very hospitable brother. i was rather overwhelmed. and uh, was quite amused by the visitors to majella's house that day..especially the two cute little ones especially! haha! nua-ed around for quite a while then went home, and realised dennis was here for dinner that day. felt quite bad that i was late, but sister didnt tell me beforehand though. :S oh and the toy that i left at swensens, aiyoh felt angry with my huh-ness, got to go try getting another one some day! ;)

chinese new year!

it's CNY! the time to feast and collect angpows, haha which indirectly means the number on the weighing scale increasing together with the amount in your bank! correlation, you call it? and those girls in school would start worrying about the taking of height and weight when school reopens. hahaha! luckily i'm no longer under the scrutiny of the PE teachers. means i got to be more disciplined on my part to go running. ;p okay i shall go tomorrow evening! speaking of which, i'm still not sure if we could go back for x-country since we're not alumni members. hmph!

anyway, CNY celebrations are more or less the same every year. it's starts to get a bit bland and boring as we grow older, and it's just the gathering of family members and uh, some politics going around. to me, i think it's a time to see how much the people around me have grown, in every sense. it just shows the true colours of some people, how uncivilised and incorrigible some people have grown into. oh wells, it's new year afterall and there's really nothing much you can do about it other than try to prevent unhappiness from evolving.

on a brighter note, it's a nice time to play with the little ones. two newer members in the family since one or two years ago have grown so fast! now they're able to chase after you and uh, in a way, communicate with the few vocabs that they know. it's nice seeing some childlike innocence after so long, after talking and dealing with grown-ups who would judge the way you behave. and i'm truly amazed at how each child is born with a different set of values and character traits. even a two-year-old can display such high levels of intelligence, something which is unseen in another eight-year-old. i've come to realise that parenting is really tough and as a result, some resolutions have been made on my part.

ooh it's a sunday

sundays never felt better and more 'looked-forward-to' than today's. waa... there's finally time for myself to do things that i want to do. i've started work on friday, right after the job stint at the SAP's exhibition cum IT fair. everything's happened too fast, to the extent that i felt i didnt have sufficient time to rest and recharge :( working at events is really tiring, and that's why i've decided not to do events anymore. hooh! starting to work at such short notice meant that i couldnt go kbox with cm before i start work, and of course the mental preparation and rest i needed. hai.. but then again, havent i always believed in grabbing the opportunity when it comes? guess i've done the right thing this time, though it's a bit tough at the start. oh wells, it's sooner or later kind of thing, and opportunities dont always come by.

met up with majella today! it's been so long! well, at least it seems long enough..haha! not counting the times she came to suntec to visit. ate lunch, coffee-beaned and shopped a little around J8. and i was right, my repulsion forces are working this time ;p haha! kinda nice to bum around with a smiley person today... actually i think it's more of sniggering and haha-ing person. probably too high on not having to work tomorrow or something, it's was quite infectious lah. though i dont think it was me who made her laugh so hard, it's nice seeing your companion happy. :) i was laughing at her, while she was laughing at i-dont-know-what. otah, maybe?? ;p

went to town to get working shoes after that. i think i must be mad... i bought two of them. uh cuz daddy was saying i should just get two for work and i could wear it out too. :S i think i'll have to control my spending on my stuff for the next few months. but i'll still be treating some of you, haha! somehow i think it feels better to spend on others than yourself. it's a different feeling, totally. :D

ahh tomorrow's another day... another two and a half days to go! haha..it's not that bad for a start actually. i shall reserve my complains when everything sets in. :)